Wednesday, June 6, 2012

First Wednesday of the Month - IWSG

WORD FOR THIS POST:

Age (n): 1. the length of time during which a being or thing has existed; length of life or existence to the time spoken of or referred to: trees of unknown age; His age is 20 years.

A big Thanks to Captain Ninja Alex J. Cavanaugh for hosting each first Wednesday of every month, the Insecure Writer's Support Group (IWSG), where writers post their doubts, concerns and insecurities without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Others offer assistance and guidance in the comments. This is what I call "the safe zone". (I just made that up)

For a full list of participants click here and hop on over to offer words of encouragement and/or assistance.

This month for me is aging. I'm in my mid thirties (ok, just over the mid) and I do not feel old, in fact, if I dress right and do my hair up, I can pass for early 20's - or people are just being kind. But lately I feel like time is running out a bit too fast. I wish I could have started my writing career earlier. I have so many ideas and stories I want to share, I keep hoping I have enough time to share them.

Am I going through something everyone experiences when life seems good and too short?

Then, my feelings turn into panic and asking myself "what if" questions. I told the hubby where to find my fifty or so passwords for different sites I belong to, should something happen. I told him he has to make sure my current work is finished, and published (even if he has to finish it himself).

I think this has a lot to do with me listening to the news. You just never know when something can happen, and you loose it all. For example yesterday, there was a story on CNN of a bus driver in a freak accident that killed him.

Now I don't apply this to everyday life, just writing and being able to accomplish what I'm striving for. Having enough time to reach my goals, because I want to reach them so, so badly.


Do you feel like time is slipping through your fingers? What are your insecurities this month?

12 comments:

C.M.Brown said...

Wow, I wish I was in my mid 30's. I was just starting to know who I was and what I wanted at that point of my life. I think you need to just enjoy the moment your in and not dwell on mortality. If you dwell too much you may just end up in the nut house!

Alex J. Cavanaugh said...

I'm long past my mid thirties so I'm really feeling the pressure! We just do what we can to accomplish our goals in the time remaining.

James Anderson said...

Hi Marta. I am right there with you in my early thirties. I call it my quarter life crisis. When I feel time slipping through my fingers, I start to think about how I should have started my goals earlier, or how I should have taken a different path here or there. When the dust settles though, I try to use this feeling as a motivator to propel myself forward towards whatever my goals are.

Stephen Tremp said...

Always. I think I have an obsession with time, for better or worse. Often the clock runs my day, which is good because I get stuff done. But one needs to learn to relax to and balance out the day.

Cate Masters said...

With every birthday, I feel the pressure more. Don't let it drive you, though. Just do what you love and enjoy the ride.

Cherie Reich said...

Time and me are enemies. I'm always feeling like I have too much I want to do and not enough time to do it. I also keep planning to make that password list too, just in case.

Annalisa Crawford said...

I'm just a little bit older than you, I think, but I refuse to believe it. Simple as that :-)

Cassie Mae said...

Yes and no. I think I'm just dealing with impatience, lol.

Lillian Archer said...

My insecurity is, as always, that no one will find entertainment in my book.

Callie Leuck said...

I'm still in my twenties and I feel like time is slipping through my fingers! It's weird when that feeling happens at the same time as feeling very, very, awkwardly, extremely young (in an inexperienced way). I keep thinking someday I'll have myself together and not feel like time is getting away from me. But maybe not. Just trying to enjoy it as it passes, I guess!

Ciara said...

I hit the big 40 so I totally get this. It does seem like time is flying by.

Lynda R Young said...

Yep, I can relate to this. Then I looked up the ages of some of my favourite authors when they first got published and many of them were in their late 40s and 50s. That was somewhat gratifying.